M.O.M: Jordan Avery

Joseph, my first miracle baby, was born at 35 weeks with a birth defect called Gastroschisis, where all of his small and large intestines and part of his stomach were outside of his body. He has endured 6 surgeries and multiple complications and despite everything, he's the happiest baby I have ever seen and is always smiling!

Christian, my second miracle baby, was born at 33 weeks. Because of his prematurity, he suffered a grade 2 IVH (bleeding in his brain) and we are not yet sure how this will impact his life and development. Despite this and some other premature issues, he is thriving!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Jordan Avery

I feel like I fail at making babies. My first baby was born with a devistating birth defect and my second baby didn't survive...I'm 0 for 2 in the healthy baby department.

Shortly after finding out that we were expecting our second baby, God called our Angel back to Heaven. Because we did not yet know if our child was a boy or a girl, we chose the name Jordan Avery. This loss is such a deep and silent suffering. It is made so much worse by those who think "it's for the best". What is best about the death of a baby?!! Just because I have no body to show for it does not negate my loss. All I have of my Angel Child are two pink lines and what could have been.